Thursday, August 15, 2013

Garden Epiphany, part 1

I had a bit of epiphany in my garden today....
A few weeks ago as I was weeding my garden, I noticed something interesting. On one edge of our garden we planted marigolds, on the edge 90 degrees to it, we planted corn. As our plants took off and started gaining strength and growing, in the cinder block "cell" right between them two plants appeared. Originally, the kids dropped a corn seed in there, but it never came out, so for the longest time that "cell" was bare. 

Now, however, to my surprise, there were two plants growing. One, closest to the marigolds, resembled the flowers in the shape of the leaves, and the other--looked exactly like a new sprout of corn. 

"Huh", I thought to myself, "Perhaps, this corn seed just took longer to germinate, and a marigold seed just accidentally flew into this same cell with the wind?" 
That seemed like a plausible explanation, and I let them be. 

A week later, I had noticed that those two plants did not grow like marigolds and corn are supposed to. There was something different and awkward...They were green and luscious, soaking up every drop of water and a ray of sun they could, they LOOKED marvelous, and with a naked eye, you wouldn't even tell that they indeed were WEEDS. 

"You almost tricked me, guys", I might have said out loud to them. 
Even though I knew they were weeds, I let them grow. 

I thought "Well, maybe they'll bloom with some pretty flowers and be of benefit that way?" 

But no...there were no blooms and no pretty flowers...There was just more and more weeds. They grew tall. They grew strong. Now you could clearly see what they are. And it's painful to see those huge weeds in my garden...They don't belong. They are fake. They are done.

My Bible reading was 2 Peter 2:1-9

2 Peter 2:2-3 (NIV)
But there were also false prophets among the people, just as there will be false teachers among you. They will secretly introduce destructive heresies, even denying the sovereign Lord who bought them—bringing swift destruction on themselves. [2] Many will follow their depraved conduct and will bring the way of truth into disrepute. [3] In their greed these teachers will exploit you with fabricated stories. Their condemnation has long been hanging over them, and their destruction has not been sleeping.


And it dawned on me: this exactly how the false teachers are! Like the weeds, who pretend to be beneficial and good, but in the end they bare no fruit and hold no value. They are pretentious. They give you a false sense of hope. They look luscious and strong, yet they are nothing but fake wannabes...

I pulled the weeds out.
I don't want them to compromise the purity and genuineness of our garden. Even though I know they are just weeds, I want them out of my sight and mind. I don't to want to give them any chances to spread their destructive seeds in our garden. Adios, fake amigos. Your place is down there on the ground...to dry out and be thrown away.

It always amazes me how God can show us the truth in the simplest ways...

Tuesday, August 13, 2013

Today was a good day...


Hello there again! Two days in a row? Whoa...Something must be really brewing up there, haha...


I feel like my Birthday came a week early this year...For the second day in a row, my hubby is sending me away from the house to cook up something fun with the kids for my Birthday. I feel really spoiled. And grateful. For many reasons :) 



And so of all spaces and places I find myself in a Starbucks again with a venti iced coffee at my side and my little old white MacBook on my lap typing away my thoughts.

Today was a good day...

The kiddos went to camp for a few hours, and it was pouring all morning. Instead of running errands, I ended up on the couch with a comfy blanket...It was one of those mornings when I NEEDED to stay in and press a "pause" button on the busyness of life. In just 2 hours, I got my Bible reading done, had a wonderful time of prayer, read a devotional I've been putting off, wrote things down in my journal, read a few really encouraging blog posts...

NO, my house didn't get cleaned...And yes, the laundry keeps piling on...but after having spent that valuable time alone with God, I realized that having a messy house does not make me a bad wife and Mom. I took care of my spiritual thirst and hunger, and this morning energized and recharged me like no fancy super-caffeinated drink can ever do.

No, I am not a lazy and lousy house keeper. I am a "happy home" maker. I need to be saturated in God's goodness and replenished with His living truth in order to be the best that I am for my husband and my children, to make them happy, to make this home happy, and to create happy memories in it.
So yes, today was a good day. 
I feel blessed and grateful.


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My scripture reading today was 2 Peter 3:18 (NIV)
18 But grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. To him be glory both now and forever! Amen.

Monday, August 12, 2013

Changes...

     
Well, hello there....
A million times I have stopped by to write something worthwhile here, and every time I would get chocked up and sit in silence, knowing that my head will explode if I don't, but also sensing that I do not wish to write a "blah-blah" post for the sake of writing at least something. This has NOT been the idea behind this blog, and I was not willing to compromise it.
When I started, I wanted just an outlet for my emotions after my Dad's passing, and then I thought I would share my many craft projects I was occupying myself with to stay distracted and focused on something other than crying and grieving....but soon enough I have realized: I want something more. I didn't know what that was, but I knew I was missing something, and that "something" was integral, special, too important to ignore...So I have pondered.

My blog adventures just have not been quite the inspiring writing experience I had envisioned in my head...I can't say I was frustrated because I never set that expectation for this blog to go anywhere further than my couch, ha. However, every now and then, I would go back to it and think, "I wonder why this is something I long for, but somehow I am not invested and, what's even more intriguing, why am I not upset?"

After some serious soul searching this year, I think I'm just starting to grasp what I've been longing for specifically: a place to be myself, to be open about my faith, to be able to meet people who share the same passions and make new friends. It's not about stats; it's not about followers; it's not about popularity and earning money...it's about fellowship. A fellowship with fellow online peeps that is honoring to God is what I am after. A fellowship that is not about ME, but is about HIM and spreading the good news is what I long for. A fellowship that brings glory to God through everything we say or do is what I deeply desire. I am fully aware that Internet blog land is ginormous, and chances are high that my little blog might stay a tiny little space where I come ever so often and vent all by myself. I am not afraid of that.

I think I'm finally at a point where I can sense God's presence in seeking direction for my blog. I haven't before...all there really was just a desire to run away from the painful emotions and to immerse myself into the virtual reality where I can hide behind the "avatar" and have a happy Internet life with no death or betrayal...How silly.

I am encouraged and hopeful that this is a new beginning of something refreshing and wonderful, something that will bring people to Christ, something that would strengthen my own faith and inspire me to explore the blog land deeper than the superficial surfing and admiring the pretty pictures.

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There will be some changes made to this blog soon...I want to start afresh and move forward with a better vision and excitement.